One day.....

It seems like every minute we are rushing to do one thing or another. Always busy. Never stopping. Well, I want to just pause for one minute and soak it all in! This morning as I woke up and laid Keller next to Kurt I was shocked to see how much my sweet baby boy has grown. Yayaya I know he didn’t just spring and grow overnight but in a way it almost seems like he has! As he lay snuggled against his daddy I couldn’t believe how quickly and how much he seems to grow and change every single day! Maybe I was just emotional because I had over a week straight with no work and loads of snuggles and now that vacations over and I’m back to reality I couldn’t just snuggle and play with him all day. But today as I stood there I couldn’t help but to smile and even tear up- One day he will grow. One day he will be too big to snuggle with daddy and mommy. One day he will want to go out with friends.. One day my baby will turn into a toddler and then a boy. One day .. one day… as these thoughts flooded my mind I had to stop myself! For two reasons… the first was because I was already running super late and yet there I was staring at my sweet hubby and baby sleep… okay so saying that out loud makes me sound like a creeper… but I promise I am anything but that! I was just marveling at how perfect everything is right now and how I don’t want it to change but at the same time loving all of these new changes and adventures! But the second reason.. aside from standing and starring for 10 minutes was because I want to stop thinking about “one day”… don’t get me wrong.. I love thinking and dreaming and planning about the future. BUT I feel that sometimes I may get a little too carried away and I start to miss the things happening in front of my very eyes right now. I know that there are so many one days out there but I want the most important one to be me sitting “one day” in the far future looking back on all these little things. All the smiles and laughs. The early morning snuggles as we pull Keller into our bed! The exhausting but oh so entertaining yard work outside that at times seems to never end. The tickle wars to hear Keller’s cute little giggle. The funny way he seems to craw while bracing his little body up with his head! (yes.. I know it sounds weird.. and that is because when he does this it is weird and scares me to death! I worry about his tiny little neck!... I will most definitely need to post a picture!) The way Keller seems to process every little detail in his mind all the meanwhile smiling , laughing, and giving hilarious looks! The way listening to daddy's guitar or mommy's singing brings instant smiles and calming! The way splashing in the tub is the “best” thing in the world! The way boating brings our family together. the adventures. the love. the fun....  I never want to forget these little moments. These moments right here. Right now. One day I will be able to look back and smile at all that has happened and all that we have done but for today I just want to soak it all in and love every minute!

one two three four I declare a blog war! hahaha

Okay so call me crazy but I am bound and determined to improve this whole blog shmog which I seem to suffer constantly with! I know you are laughing because lets face it, I start every blog post out saying how I want to get better and write more often and la-dee-da-dee-da… BUT I am serious!!! So Kurt and I were watching the office and they keep showing flashbacks and it hit me like a ton of bricks! I don’t know if you watch the office or not.. but you should it is hilarious!!!! Well in the latest episode they do a Jim/ Pam flashback thing.. Jim makes Pam a cute little video of all their times together… sappy I know but I was seriously jealous! Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that I want a camera crew to start following my every move.. However I am sure that would be ohhh so entertaining! But how cool would it be to have all of those little memories and moments on hand to re-watch over and over again! I would LOVE that!!! Yes I am that cheesy! Come on admit it.. You would love it too! haha So then I got to thinking that heck if I cant have someone record my every move then I will have to start recording them on this lovely blog myself so that one day I can sit down with Kurt and together we can laugh our little hearts out! Wouldn’t that just be so fun!! Okay so here I am today declaring my goal that I WILL WRITE MORE IN THIS BLOG!!! If you don’t see regular updates from me on this lovely little site please feel free to egg my house! Hahaha JUST KIDDING PLEASE DO NOT EGG MY HOUSE!!! I am sure I will still struggle so lets give it time okay… but any helpful little reminders and motivations would be greatly appreciated.. (Within reason! Haha put the eggs back in your refrigerators!!!) Alright friends well here it goes… this just got personal! J

6 months and then some!!

Disclamer... okay I have to apoligize... I wrote this post 3 weeks ago and forgot to post! so sorry!!! :(

6months old.

Is it possible that time can move this quickly?

I sit here watching, listening, and loving my sweet baby boy – whom to be totally honest- is growing faster than I ever could’ve imagined!!

I love everything about him- this stage, his changing eyes, his snuggles, and of course we cannot forget the sweetest little squeal/ giggle you have ever heard!

It seems like just yesterday we were driving unknown speeds (okay not really- kurt was as safe as could be and obeyed all traffic laws.. but for the sake of the story and what I would have loved.. we sped down the interstate to the hospital!) haha but really we did make good time J

I remember walking into the hospital scared out of m mind that they were going to send me home since I was a first time “overly paranoid mom” but that was not the case at all.. they took us back and 3 short hours later our sweet baby boy was in our arms all snuggled and loving all of the kisses and hugs!

And now I feel as though someone fit the fast forward button and boom here we are with our little (big) angel!! Keller’s 6 month appointment was yesterday and he was such a little sweetheart – even through the shots! Ouch!! He is  whopping 19 pounds 9 ounces, 28.5 inches tall, and a big ol head of 45.6 cm J We have one big baby boy!

Driving home from his appointment music filled my ears.. not your ordinary radio music- that just wont cut it for me anymore ;) But rather the sweetest sounds ever of Keller signing and humming while playing with his little mickey (which he LOVES!!!) He absolutely loves to sing and talk.. non stop.. yikes! (Where on earth does he get that from! Haha just kidding! J ) But I cannot get enough of it! He is my little angel, my best buddy, and my precious baby boy! I cant believe how much life has changed over the past six months and how “tricky” it is to get all of my projects and even exercising done- BUT.. I wouldn’t change a single thing.

Being a mom has been the greatest blessing I could have ever asked for and I am soo blessed and lucky as can be to get the sweetest baby and hubby ever! We are still in the process of getting our crazy lives under control and trying our best to be “civilized” but for now I will take it all how it is- just to soak in the perfectness of it all!! Thank you little Keller Bug for joining this crazy little family of ours, we love you more than you will ever imagine!!!

To show you how amazing my sweet angel is… let me overload you with some pictures!!!!...

Happy Mother's Day!!

Happiness, love, gratitude, peace, and perfection are the words that instantly held a new meaning the moment I became a mommy. My world changed dramatically almost 7 months ago and I could not be more grateful or blessed for that matter! The moment I held Keller in my arms everything that I had been preparing my whole life for became real. I became a mommy! I can still see his perfect little face in my mind as I looked at him through tear filled eyes for the very first time. I miss those little kicks as he grew and developed in my belly but I would not for a second give up the laughs, kicks, and giggles I am now spoiled with all day every day! He is growing so fast and learning things sooo quickly! I am amazed every second at the way his little mind never seems to rest! I love my perfect little angel and I could not ask for a better calling than that of a mother!

Also on this mother’s day I have a greater appreciation of my own mom and all that she has done and sacrificed for me! I love you mom! You are the greatest mom I could have ever asked for and I love you so very much! I have learned so much and continue to learn every day from all that you have taught me! There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you and thank my heavenly father for all that you have sacrificed not only for me but for all of your children! I know you have sacrificed so much more than I could ever comprehend and I love you so much for that! Thank you mom! Thank you for your hugs and your kisses, your smiles and your laughs, your constant thoughts and prayers in my behalf, your patience and your trials. Mom, thank you for everything! I love you , I love you, I love you I do!!! I am so blessed to have you forever and for always! You are the greatest blessing I could have ever asked for! I am also blessed with an incredible mother in law whom I love and adore completely! I am so grateful for her and the incredible son that she raised that is a perfect father to our adorable son and an amazing husband to me! The patience and love that she has is unreal and she is such a great example to me!!  These two women have made the most infinite impact on my life and have taught me so much! I have been blessed more than I could ever imagine!! I love you both and wish you the happiest of all mothers’ days!!

Happy mother’s day to all the wonderful women in my life!! There are far too many to count- I love and appreciate you all! Thank you thank you thank you!!!

Thanks little Keller Bug for making me a mommy!!!!



If the Savior Stood Beside Me.....

So Kurt and I were called to be primary teachers a few weeks ago and lets be honest, I love primary so it is a blast!! (not that I didn’t love scouts too.. they were so fun! But I am a little more in my comfort zone in primary seeing as how I have never been a boy scout before! Haha) Anyways, a huge part of primary is singing /sharing time! Is it absolutely crazy that I LOVE LOVE LOVE this part! What is more perfect than listening to a bunch of sweet little voices singing about Jesus? Well, one of the songs we have been working on for the past few weeks is “If the savior stood beside me”, the words to this sweet primary song touch my heart every week, I love it! The last verse sings..

“He is always near me, though I do not see Him there,

And because He loves me dearly,

I am in His watchful care,

So I’ll be the kind of person that I know I’d like to be

if I could see the Savior standing nigh watching over me.”

How incredible is that to think about? Really and truly I cannot even begin to imagine how different I would be if the savior was standing beside me each and every day. That is the sad truth, that being said, I want to be better in every way so that I can feel of his spirit always because he is beside me always. I know that my savior loves me and wants so much for me, but it is up to me to be worthy of those blessings.

3/11/10 = 3 years baby!

Oh hey you handsome hubby of mine!
I just wanted to take a second to publicly embarrass you by proclaiming my undying love! haha Just teasing.. but really! Happy Anniversary to the man I love more than anything!!
Happy anniversary! , 3 years BAPE!! :) I am pretty sure that qualifies us for some kind of married people street cred right?!? I'll see that newlywed bliss and raise you 3 years marital bliss, 1 cute baby boy, a boat, a house... oh and the mortgage! yup... we have made it!  this is serious business now! I am so glad that you chose to marry me in spite of the then unknown hockey facts and well minor height difference (hey at least its not the other way around right?! haha I could be hugely tall!! haha) But baby can't nobody love me quite like you do!  Thanks for my sweet little baby boy, whom I love and adore more than anything! Thanks for your endless hard work to take care of all our needs and wants and most of all thanks for caring for my crazy and well somewhat drastic self :) I love you so so much and fall in love with you more and more everyday! I would say yes again in a second! I love you Kurt! 3 down, eternity to go! I love you! I love you! I love you!
(embarrassed?!?! haha LOVE YOU!!!)
XOXOXOXO