totally in love

Last year around this time I thought life was perfect! An amazing man whom I get to call my hubby J a sweet little apartment, and a house that was soon to be ours J Life as I knew it, was perfect!! Little did I know that, that heart I thought was so full already was nearly empty compared to what it soon would be! Little did I know that the 2 of us was already 3.. little did I know that I my heart much like the Grinch would grow 2 sizes with the sweet growing baby inside of me! Just a little over a year ago I found out we were expecting a sweet baby (Feb 2012) and now a short year later and my sweet baby is already 5 months old!! And growing more every day!!

I know it may sound silly but there are times where I just sit and watch him for endless hours! His smiles. His giggles. His perfect little non stop talking. And his constant movement! I sit in amazement that just a year ago I sat in almost this very same spot in our house wondering which room would be the “baby’s” room and would it be a boy or a girl.. and oh the name lists! It all happened right here and it seems so long ago but at the very same time it seems like just yesterday! What use to be those little flutters in my stomach is now a growing baby boy who I still don’t quite understand how he fit inside me.. but I am so glad he figured it out so that we can now have him here with us healthy and strong!

It is so crazy to think of the emotions and feelings that constantly surged through my body and now those emotions are still there but in a different form. I wish so badly now that I would have been better at recording every thought and feeling as I had it but I (as you are well aware) struggle at getting around to these things with so many other things going on. However, as I know have realized, if I don’t record every little detail I am scared to death that I will forget the little things that I love so much.

As we got ready to do our taxes I was looking through all the paperwork we would need I found a little letter I had written for Keller the week before he was born.

My Sweet baby boy,

 I cannot believe that you’re almost here! I am so excited to finally meet you and hold you in my arms! Your daddy and I have been waiting for you for 9 long months and pretty soon we’ll get to see you, touch you, and gaze into your beautiful eyes.  I’m especially looking forward to holding you in my arms and nuzzling your sweet smelling head.  Let’s spend hours together just cuddling, nursing, sleeping, and enjoying life together… deal?!?  

I can’t wait to be your mommy.  I’ve been preparing for motherhood since I was basically 5 so my little angel, you have nothing to be worried about! Haha (who am I kidding) I am so excited and terrified and well to be honest I won’t blame you a bit if you are a little nervous, but I can promise you I will love you forever and do my best to be the best mommy ever!!  And since the doctor told me 2 weeks ago that you would be here any minute, I now  feel so ready to welcome you into my life and snuggle you more than you can imagine.  I’ve studied everything I could about how to be a good parent, how to help you learn and grow, and how to be the best example I can be for you.  I’ve even practiced by taking care of lots of other babies and kids by babysitting and working with little angels at work everyday, but really it was all for you.  Taking care of you and teaching you how to take good care of yourself sounds like the most fun and rewarding thing I could possibly do in my life.  Thanks for helping me fulfill my life’s purpose.

Just wait ‘till you meet your daddy.  He’s fantastic.  I just know he’s going to be such a wonderful daddy to you. He is so smart, strong, adventurous, loving, funny and more! I   always wanted to find the perfect guy to love and be sealed to for time and all eternity and well … that’s your dad.  He cares so much for you already and is just so excited to teach you oh so many things!  You are going to love him so much! He will be your best buddy and the one you will look up to for everything!  I love his honesty and the way he has trouble keeping a secret, even when it’s a fun surprise.  I completely trust him to take exquisite care of all of our hearts, which is really the most important task of all.  And on top of all that, he’s hilarious!  With your daddy in our lives, we are sure to have lots and lots of laughter and fun. (trust me he has already made summer plans for when you come! .. I hope you like boating! Haha)

My friends keep telling me that you’re “one lucky baby” and I agree…. But not because the same reasons they think.. you are one lucky boy because you have an amazing daddy and an incredible heavenly father who trusts mommy and daddy enough to take care of you for awhile!  I still cant believe it, but I couldn’t be more ecstatic!

 I’ve always thought of myself as pretty darn lucky and well I feel more and more lucky everyday when I  feel your little kicks so strong and stronger everyday! .  I can wait to meet you sweetheart! I love you so much already and I hope you always know that! Your mommy and daddy love you so much and we will always be here for you no matter what! I know that sometimes life will get a little crazy and even hard but it is so worth it and I know you will make it through it all like a champ! I love you buddy and I always will!

I cant wait to meet you sweetheart but you take your time, okay! You come when you’re all ready- We will get through the whole delivery thing together! J I am sure it will be so perfect and so worth it once I get to to see your cute little fingers and toes! I love you my sweet baby! I will see you soon, okay! I love you! Love your mommy!!  XOXO

It was so crazy to read my crazy scrambled words but the truth behind every single one still stands true! I am so totally in love with my growing baby boy and even though he doesn’t seem to want to stay small for too long, I have loved every minute and love him more every single day!! If only I could pause time for a little while so that I could soak it all in! One day! One day! (hopefully there is some sweet angel in heaven just recording every little event so that one day I can watch it over and over again.. yup.. I am that sappy!!) but in all seriousness I love every little second with my boys and I am totally in love! Keller mommy loves you and I would never change a thing! I love you sweetheart!

Thank you Mr. Bus Driver!!

There are a million ways that I could start this post but I think the best and easiest way would be with a simple thank you! I didn’t know his name, I couldn’t see his name badge, I don’t even know where he technically works, but today he made a difference.

Lets just say that I don’t like buses… in fact, I HATE really really really don’t like them! They are big, loud, scary, and usually a little smelly! Well trying my best to abide by the new hospital protocol I now must park offsite (boo!) so by parking offsite I too get the lovely opportunity to ride the shuttle! I mean seriously who wouldn’t want to ride a shuttle first thing in the morning and then again after a 9 hour work day! Sense the sarcasm?!?!

Well I don’t want to complain anymore or give you the wrong idea because I promise that is not what this is about! In fact.. this post is for the exact opposite!

Well to give you a brief idea of how my first day with the shuttle went .. here goes nothing… Well after arriving to the parking lot I wasn’t quite sure if I was looking at the right bus so as I sat waiting to see if anyone I recognized got on the bus it soon left! Ahhh! Not the way I wanted to start my day!! Well after getting on the next bus which came 10-15 minutes later I finally got to work!

Okay now fast forward 8.5 hours after a very exhausting and frustrating day there I was running (in heels) looking like a total idiot trying to catch the bus before it drove away! And to add to it, I almost fell flat on my backside in a huge slush puddle but to make it worse I didn’t totally fall instead I flapped my arms like a dang bird trying to keep my balance! Ya trust me when I say I looked like a total fool!! Needless to say the bus didn’t drive away without me.. I think he felt bad since I looked like such a mess!! I was totally embarrassed and couldn’t wait to get home so I quickly and quietly got on the bus to head to the parking lot.

After unloading all of the employees at the guardsman lot I walked to my car started unloading all of my bags when the shuttle pulled up and then stopped behind my car! The driver without a second thought jumped out of the shuttle and quickly started cleaning the piles of snow off my car.. he didn’t even have a scraper, using his bare hands he smiled as he brushed every bit of snow off my car without hesitation simply saying “Have a great day!”

I don’t even know his name .. all I know is he was truly an angel! That is definitely what I needed, his simple smile and quick gesture of kindness made me a weeping mess the whole way home! I just wanted to say a huge thank you to him and let him know that his simple act of going the extra mile truly changed my whole day! Even though I do not like busses I am hoping to see him again to say thank you, but just in case I wanted to make sure he was recognized! Thank you Mr. Bus driver for making my day, you truly have no idea what that meant to me! Thank you!!!

2012... (super late.. whoops!!)

Okay so first off... this is sooooooooooooo over due! I didnt realize it was still sitting in draft but I have been busy and still havent had the time to add pictures so what the heck.. here it is in all its boring glory.. but none the less I am loving 2013 already and cant wait for all that it has to bring!!! 2013 the thomas gang is here to play!!! woot! woot!!

Where on earth do I even begin?!?! 2012.. what a great year! I cant believe how much happened and how truly amazing this year has been! As I sit and try to think back on the events of this year, they all seem to fly by! This year was full of a lot of firsts and more adventure and love then one could ever begin to hope for!

We welcomed the year 2012 in the utmost fashion! It all began with dinner out at Tepenyaki with friends! Followed by a night of games, fun, and lots of laughter!! (what better way to start a year right!?!?) Well that perfect night soon turned into a perfect year! Each month was full of memories galore! So, bear with me for a quick flashback of 2012! …

January:
New Years celebrations... Skiing... Work... School... etc...

February:   
Valentines....Aliyah's baby blessing...Lexi goes through the temple to recieve her endowments.. offer was accepted on our house... found out I was pregnant!!... Work.. School... etc...

March:
2nd anniversary... St. George getaway with Lance and Atalie.... first ultrasound! (9 weeks!).... Kurt's 25th  birthday!...  closed on our house! ... Kurt gets accepted to Utah States Business program!..  Work... School... etc...

April:

Easter!... My birthday!... Lexie leaves to the MTC... House remodeling begins!!... natalie's hair for prom!... Kurt gets Pink Eye and Eye Conjunctivitis (YUCK!!)... anounce pregnancy! ... Work.. school.. etc...

May:
Mother's Day... Emergency Room adventure.... bed rest x2 days (Eek!) ... Its a BOY!!!!... remodeling continues.... Move in to our house!!! woot! woot! Liz and Chase's wedding!.. work...  finals fo school!!...etc...

June:
Father's Day... St. George Thomas Family Vacation... Jet skiing adventures... work... etc...

July:
4th of July Celebrations!... Kidney Stones .... 24th celebrations on the roof! haha!... Backyard movie night with the Thomas clan!.. baby registeries begin... work... sold jet ski.... bought a boat! (sold boat 2 weeks later!)....etc...

August:
Bought boat #2... Boating adventures... New Fence!... Vegas Bound adventure! 1st baby shower with family in Vegas (30 weeks)... Kurt tries the wake park... #2 baby shower with friends in Bountiful! ... work... etc...

September:
Labor Day Fishing adventure... Scout leaders... Kurt plays Hockey!... #3 baby shower with Kurts childhood neighborhood!... baby room ready!... more boating adventures!... #4 baby shower with Wuthrich Family... Kurts Parents move in!.. work...  etc...

October:
General Conference!... #5 baby shower with Thomas/Call Family... #6 ward baby shower.... Work...Root Canal... No more driving to work... waiting game... Warren Miller Movie... Cookie baking craze... KELLER!!! best day EVER!!! .... 2Xdays at Riverton Hospital... Going home.. halloween traditions with lance and Atalie with new included baby adventures!! ... etc...

November:
Election craziness... Everyday with the cutest boy EVER!! .... resting.. healing.. loving!!! Kisses.. Hugs.. HEAVEN!.. Thanksgiving with mom and dad thomas... black friday shopping.. snuggling!.. christmas shopping... 1st adventure to PARK CITY celebrating Keller turning one month!.. skiing... etc...

December:
Kellers baby blessing!... back to work... Christmas festivities... So many parties! ... Keller Bug turns 2 months... Kellers 1st Christmas.... New Years eve festivites! Traditions with Lance, at, Ty, & Rochelle! Texas Roadhouse..Knee boarding through the neighborhoods.. Ice Cream.. etc... Welcome 2013!

2012 was so great to us and we can’t wait to see what the wonderful year of 2013 has in store!

Keller's first Christmas!!

Its completely normal to have a million and one best day evers right?!?! RIGHT!!! Every single day with my boys seems to top the one before and quite honestly I LOOOOVVVEE IT!!!! Every single day is truly amazing but Christmas was truly remarkable! It was a magical perfect day! Holidays are soo much more fun and exciting when you get to celebrate them with sweet little kiddos! Our Christmas celebrations started during the week and it was a busy week at that! Thursday night we attended the Forgotten Carols with Kurt’s parents! It was amazing! I love the incredible feeling that you leave that production with! It truly puts you in the Christmas spirit! Friday night was our Wuthrich Family Christmas get together! We celebrated together at our home this year! We are so blessed to have such an incredible family and they absolutely spoiled us and our little Keller more than we could have asked for! Saturday night we had our perfect annual Call Christmas get together! So much fun! It is always so good to see everyone! Sunday night we spent snuggled together in total anticipation of our coming adventures! Monday.. aka Christmas Eve!! After working in the morning we had our Thomas family get togethers!! First we all met up at Nate and Ashley’s new house.. Keller and I were the first to arrive and Logan and Bailey were more than excited to spoil Keller with their gifts! They got him a little Mario back pillow to help sit up! It was so absolutely adorable! When everyone else showed up we did a family gift exchange and got spoiled! We seriously couldn’t ask for better families! We are so blessed! After our gift exchange, we battled the weather and carpooled it up to Heber for the annual Christmas party!  We had so much fun and well to be honest Keller slept through almost the whole night… I am not sure how he sleeps through all the craziness but he seems to manage! Christmas Eve wrapped up with us snuggled together watching A Christmas Story, wearing our Christmas PJs, and getting some last minute wrapping done.
Okay well that was a super quick glance at our pre-Christmas festivities… as for Christmas… it was amazing! I think Kurt and I were way more excited then Keller but I know deep down he was so full of excitement.. he is just far better at controlling himself than us! Haha We all headed down Christmas morning and lucky for us.. SANTA CAME! Woot! Woot! Keller was spoiled rotten by Santa and we loved helping him open all of his gifts! Kurt was so cute with all of his little surprises for Keller.. lets just say that I know as Keller gets older, we are going to be very busy with adventures! And I am sure I will always be full of worry along with all that excitement because my boys are going to be full of energy and adventure! Our christmas gifts seemed never ending, I cant believe how much we were spoiled! We also got to talk to Lexie!!! Sister Wuthrich is doing amazing! London is so blessed to have her! It is absolutly crazy how much I miss her, but I know she is right where she needs to be and she is doing amazing things!!! I am so proud of her!!!
We then had christmas dinner at Meghan & Victor's house with Meg, Victor, Addie, and kurt's parents! It was perfect!!

Well all in all our Christmas was truly perfect in every way imaginable! And for some pictures……..

All in all... we were spoiled rotten and truely blessed!! What a great year it has been!! :)

Better Than Perfect

I know they say you should sleep when your baby sleeps but I can't help but to smile and pause in gratitude when I get out of the shower and find my sweet baby boy and husband all snuggled in bed fast asleep meanwhile the movie they started plays in the background... Yet from all their exhaustion they only watched about 10 minutes. I smile when I go to put Keller in his bassinet and they both snuggle closer together as if to subconsciously tell me they are comfortable and don't want to be budged at all. I smile knowing how much this daddy loves his little boy and how much he misses him everyday! I smile knowing that this daddy is my incredible husband, a man who works hard to support our little family all day and then comes home wanting so badly to snuggle but has endless hours of studying and schoolwork. However even with his heavy workload he still manages to find time for me and Keller! He still spoils us with hugs and kisses! He shows us unconditional love he sacrifices his time, money, and even sleep! He doesn't hesitate to wake up and snuggle for those late nights. Even though he can't "feed" the baby he wakes up with us anyways just to snuggle and talk. He changes diapers even though it's not his “favorite” thing! He cleans up spit up and tells great stories of skiing and future adventures! He is my husband, my best friend, and my eternal companion! Even though we are still adjusting and are exhausted more often than not, we are happier than ever! I love my sweetheart more now then I could have ever imagined! I can't believe how blessed I am to have my boys! I love my little Keller bug and kurt more than anything! I smile as I walk in and see them snuggling and with everything running through my mind, I know that I have it all! I smile not because life is perfect but because it is a life of happiness a life of learning a life of fun a life of love and most of all a life I get to live, love, and enjoy as we try our best to be perfect... Knowing its nearly impossible but loving the journey. Besides I think this is far better than perfection... Exhaustion and all... This life is my own perfect little heaven on earth!!

Keller's Blessing day!!

We blessed our little Keller bug yesterday! December 2, 2012. 6 weeks old to the day and perfect as can be! It was an absolutely perfect day!!

The anticipation for this day was unreal.. I think Kurt teased me all week as I decorated for Christmas trying to get the house ready as well as searching everywhere for the perfect little blessing outfit for Keller! I wanted to get him a perfect little outfit that would be special but since I am cheap I also didn’t want to spend 50 bucks on an outfit he would only wear once.. so… after looking at numerous stores I finally put together exactly what I was looking for! I ended up getting it from Janie and Jack, and can I just say… one day I hope to be rich just so I can buy my kiddos all the cute little outfits they sell.. Their outfits are all to die for! Soo cute!! Well when I first started shopping I got very nervous because the onsie alone was 32 bucks… um really there is no way I could spend that on just a onsie.. but thank goodness for holiday sales! Woot! Woot! I ended up getting his entire outfit (onsie, pants, hat, & tie) all for a lovely $36.97- Can I tell you how much I love clearance racks! And the best part is he can totally wear it all again.. well until he grows more! Which seems to be happening a lot quicker than I would like… my baby is going to be a toddler in no time if he doesn’t slow down! Well he was dressed to impress! He looked so handsome in his little button up shirt, and suspenders! Complete with the cutest little hat… and the hat without the bowtie he looked just like a newsie! I couldn’t help it, he looked absolutely adorable and handsome in every way!!! He also had a beautiful blessing blanket that some of our family friends made for us! I love it and I will save it forever!! I think it is one we will use for all of our kiddos! It was truly humbling to wrap our sweet baby in a blanket made with so much love and kindness and we felt truly blessed to be able to use it on such a beautiful occasion as Kurt was able to give our little guy a name and a blessing.   

The morning went on without any problem and for once… we were early for church! Phew!!! It was such a great feeling to walk into the chapel and already see so many family and friends there to show their love. We are truly blessed! Right when we walked in and I saw all the familiar faces I felt nervous… not the bad kind but I was just so full of emotion suddenly I felt as though I was going to burst! As it was time for the blessing and Kurt stood with Keller I was full of so much emotion I automatically started tearing up and it only got worse as I watched our dads, grandpas, uncles, and friends. It was so amazing to see so many worthy priesthood holders and know that my sweet baby boy has so many incredible examples. Kurt was able to give our little Keller Booth Thomas his name as well as the most beautiful blessing which will stay forever in my heart! I wish so badly I could have recorded it in some way, the spirit was so strong and it was honestly such a beautiful and perfect experience. I never imagined the way that I would feel, there was something about hearing your own baby blessed that words cannot describe! I cannot even begin to express how grateful I am to be sealed for time and eternity to a worthy priesthood holder and be a mommy to the cutest little boy that there ever was! My heavenly father has blessed me with the most incredible family, I have been blessed far beyond anything I could have ever dreamed of!

As sacrament continued, the spirit grew and seemed to eat me away as I listened to each testimony and I knew I had to say something. As I stood to bear my testimony, I immediately was overcome with emotion. My love for my heavenly father and savior became so overpowering I felt as though I was going to wiggle the podium right off the stand from shaking so badly. When I finished my testimony I only hope people could understand my words through my sobs, I went to sit with my incredible family. As I sat back down after staring across the entire congregation which was packed of family and friends I felt so blessed and so overwhelmed with love. I will never understand what I did to deserve so many blessings but I am without a doubt so incredibly grateful!

 

After the blessing we all headed home and well to be honest I think if we would have squished one more person in our house it would have burst at the seams.. we had 70+ in our home at once! but I loved it! We had so many come out to show there love and support! The turnout was truly amazing… I honestly don’t even know how we fit everyone in our little house but  It was so great to have so many family and friends come to support our little Keller! Even though our little man seemed to sleep through his entire celebration I know he loved all the snuggles and love from everyone that was there in spirit and in person!

And then by the end of the day we were all ready for bed! Well at least me and kurt were! Haha once everyone left Keller was wide awake and ready to play! It was hilarious so we ended up snuggling and playing with our little angel till about midnight when he decided to finally fall asleep for a few hours! Needless to say it was a very long night… but it was a perfect day so it all equaled out to be great! We love our little mister so much and I am so in love with both of my boys! I can’t imagine a day without either of them!

Introducing our little Keller Booth Thomas

It has been far too long since I last posted and I know for sure that I am quite possibly the worst blogger ever but what can I say, I have been a little pre-occupied with something far better than blogging could ever be.. and that is this little man!

And.. that I have also decided is why I must blog! I want to always remember the little things! The smiles and coos, the long nights and dirty diapers, the hugs and kisses, and much much more! Life as I know it is a never ending whirlwind of adventure. It has been amazing on levels that I never would have imagined possible, and yet here I am… sitting at a computer, dark circles under my eyes, a huge smile on my face, all while snuggling a beautiful 6 week old little boy who just wants to snuggle in his moms arms instead of sleeping in his crib… and well to be honest, that is how I like it!

Well to start from the beginning, 6 weeks ago on Sunday the 21^st of October Kurt and I woke up after waiting and hearing that our little man could arrive “any day”… well after hearing that for 4 weeks and seeing nothing, this October morning seemed no different… that is until after sacrament meeting. During sacrament I was uncomfortable… nothing too extreme but I just couldn’t seem to sit still so we headed home and after awhile I fell fast asleep!   I woke up an hour later with that same discomfort.. I jokingly turned to kurt and said “ha wouldn’t that be awesome if this was labor! It doesn’t even hurt!” well I spoke too soon.. While laying down I had a sudden stomach pain and thought I had  to go to the bathroom… TMI, I know.. sorry! But no luck, I was suddenly very uncomfortable. Well after this pain went on for a few minutes Kurt decided to time them and said that they were probably contractions… I told him there was no way and then decided to try and paint my nails while sitting there stuck in the bathroom, haha oh I didn’t have any luck with that because that is when the pain got unbearable.. to the point I didn’t think I could get off the toilet. Kurt timed them again and they were less than 3 minutes apart! Whoops.. I should have listened to my sweet and smart hubby sooner because When the contractions came, they came with a vengeance! Haha Well our adventure began and we headed to the hospital… I feel bad for every car we passed because I know for a fact that I looked like death as I was withering in pain in the front seat! We arrived at Riverton hospital just after 6pm and once at the hospital they took us right back , checked  me and let me know that I was only at a 4.. which didn’t sound too exciting to me since I was at a 3 for weeks! And then they told me that since it was our first, I would probably be in labor for a good 12-16 hours, which sounded like the death of me.   

They through in an IV that helped a little with the pain but I was still feeling the contractions like crazy so the nurse came back in after only 10 minutes and checked again.. and to our surprise and excitement, I was already at an 8! EEK!! They quickly called the anesthesiologist to get me an epidural and called the doc because I was ready to push! After I was relaxed and the doctor arrived I was good and ready to go! I started pushing around 730pm and our little man arrived at 953pm…. I will spare you all the details about me and pushing but I am happy to say it was a truly incredible experience and nothing like the movies... if anything I was laughing and unsure if I was doing it right... that is only because of the epidural they gave me before and once I was given the epidural it was pain free ... amazing!!! but truthfully I do not know how people do it natuarlly... that was always my plan, until I actually felt the pain and then I was begging for the drugs right as we walked in the hospital doors! they were AMAZING!!!

However the most amazing part of all was our little baby! Seeing Dr. Hansen lift up our sweet baby boy and laying him on my chest was the most incredible experience in the world. Words cannot describe the feelings that were in the room nor the happiness for that matter! Everything else at that very second seemed to fade away. It was just me, my eternal sweetheart, and our perfect baby boy. It is so funny because almost instantly it seemed that the 3 of us had always been and just fit so perfectly. I couldn’t have asked for a better pregnancy or outcome! That night Kurt and I stayed wide awake just in awe at the thought that we were now officially parents! The three of us all squished together on the hospital bed and in no better way to describe it… just soaked it all in! Snuggling, smiling, and just loving every minute! It was truly a dream come true.

Now fast forward 6 weeks and here we are… I never imagined that I would have such a perfect little blonde haired blued eyed child! But I love every bit of him! I wish I could record his every movement, every sound, and every perfect little adorable face expression! I can’t believe how quickly he has already seemed to grow and how fast he is changing! It is absolutely terrifying to think that my baby will one day grow up! I have no doubt that my love for him will just continue to grow but I in this moment want nothing more than to remember every little stage and grin! I love my little angel and cant imagine a day without him!